high maintenance?????

this guy who barely knows me said "oh you a high maintenance chick"
ok we all have our high maintence moments...for me its when im going out for the
night.

Not only in my everyday life am i not high maintenance but im the opposite i dont do pedi /mani's , i dont do the high retail shopping, i dont make a whole day of mall shopping , but my only vice is shoes!!!! i love SHOES!!! i think i have aT LEAST 10 Pairs that i only wear to go out. its not like im like the black Carrie Bradshaw, but i come pretty close!!

Dont be decieved this sister on on a budget honey.
i used to do m.a.c. and sephoras but now im doing loreal and maybelline but i still look great.
And im far from prissy or unapproachable maybe its what my bff said " your too pretty for him, so he had to say something because he felt intimidated". Maybe...but dont make assumptions about people you dont know!!!
ugh!!

who you callin' crazy?

ok so i had been having lots of personal issues and decided to seek counseling and do you know what my sister said to me? " only crazy people go see shrinks"

this is a common myth amoung those who've never seeked counseling and i think she needs it too...lol

going to see a therapist has not only opened me up to actually talking about how i feel i tend to not isolate myself so much anymore. For me theres always been a trust factor and i dont mingle well with strangers, im guarded but then i realize i dont let anyone in at all.But going to see ms.finley was the best decision ive made. i wanted to feel comfortable so i chose someone black and a woman (i figure we have that much in common, should be easy)

it wasnt. i felt things i havent felt in years and things i pushed back came to the surface.its a healing process and its hard. I want to change myself for the better and confronting your past is a great way to start a new future.

what happened to your hair?

A bad hair day can put us women in a blue mood, a bad haircut will reduce us to tears and dont even mention the regret she feels when she get a new hairstyle gone awry!

i hear all the time "your self confidence is on the inside cause you can look good on the outside but ugly on the inside" really?

cause when i feel like a million bucks it shows on the outside too and thats including my hair..i dont fuss over it as much as i used to but a bad hair day ruins my day.

I try to cover it up with a scarf or hat but it just so happens that many opportunties come your way when you looking a hot mess...

i try not go out like that but sometimes it's unavoidable(sigh)

but ive seen some women who just dont care..literally dont care.

hopefully i will never get that comfortable where i dont care what my hair looks like and face each bad(unavoidable) hair day with a smile on my face and some shades..you know people can be mean when they see you not looking so fresh like "girl, what happened to your hair?"

so rude!

looking good naked?

I dont know about anyone else but i dont look at myself naked...i can't.

I'm seeing all these new rolls i didnt have before, my jeans don't fit like they used to, im literally seeing myself in the near future heading towards plus size when i go shopping!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!


being that im an asthmatic i've been on oral steroids for a while now and i keep gaining weight, thus taking me out of my comfort zone,both alone and being with someone.
They say men are visual creatures and with all the goings on in society about being one size and conforming to society's standards of beauty do any of us look good naked in our own eyes?

Are those who seem to be picture perfect feel the same way the average woman feels?

we all have that friend that looks good whatever she wears and cant understand for the life of her why she keeps getting "all this attention"...whatever!
not a hater at all but keeping yourself in shape is a daunting task when genetics or medications has other plans for you.

I know im not a bbw but i sure feel like one..
my solution?
stop complaining about it and do something. i'll keep you posted.

making the impossible possible

Its a feat in itself and having the right state of mind can largely influence that, but when it comes to our relationships why do we feel the need to perform these fantastic magic tricks to be sane?

or even be happy?

how can we try to change someone when its so hard to change ourselves?

Men are usually predisposed to not changing (its probably in their genes!!)

but as women we tend to take on this superwoman persona, we will make him call back, we will make him stop spending so much time with his friends, we will make him remember important dates, we will help him find a job, we will help him get his car fixed, we will make this man who we want him to be.

i believe a man is gonna be who he is and no amount of love and support you give him will actually work. we spend too much time trying to create the perfect man but we tend to neglect our own needs and lose ourselves when our "project"

just wont cooperate.

ladies please remember that what we look for in other people we have to look for in ourselves and stop killing yourself trying to make the impossible possible!

he loves her...

When he loves her......every woman knows what this feels like and its soo very hard to comprehend. i had a similar situation where he spent time with me and made me feel like i was the only one he truly cared for but at the end he loved he loved her not me. We as women go through this phase of dillusion that some way some how shes gonna screw up and he'll be back seeing that we were the better choice, which almost never happens. So what do we do? the five phases of trauma- denial: (no matter what people tell us we wont believe it )

anger:( how can he do this to me and with her?)

bargaining: (some of us even resort to crying and willing to accept hes with someone else,even having trysts with this man in hopes to get him back)

depression:( when all else fails we blame ourselves thinking what we did wrong and not seeing a way to fix it)

acceptance:( even though we k now that he does love someone else most of us like me accept and move on, not all of us and do this there goes denial rearing its ugly head)

its not easy ladies i know but when he loves someone else dont bother you cannot control where his heart is but you can control who deserves yours.

looks good......

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